Tuesday.

Where are you resisting being of service?

I'm resisting being of service to myself. I don't allow myself to be the person I want to be. I see my potential but don't act on it.

What are you saying yes to?

I'm accepting a lot more in terms of offers in my daily life. I say yes to going out for the night, yes to auditioning for a part in a show, yes to giving myself some time to relax and enjoy myself. In my improv class this semester we're working on accepting offers, and literally have to say yes to everything. I've realized it's harder to say yes than I'd imagined because it's just so easy to say no. Saying yes the past few weeks has offered me a lot more than saying no would have and I'm grateful for learning this maxim.

What are you grateful for today?

Music

Dance

Rest

Question of the Day

Where in your life are you being stingy? What do you love to contribute to the world?

Stingy to me means holding back from something. Like, "my mom is stingy and won't let me have ice cream".. that sort of thing. I guess it could be associated with unwillingness though. I wouldn't say I'm very unwilling though... just not very willful... does that make sense? I need to learn how to be more willing of new situations and people and experiences. I know that seems broad but it's the truth. I'm stingy when it comes to putting myself out there and making a new friend or meeting a new guy. I need to accept myself and fully enjoy and take advantage of social situations I'm in. I love to contribute smiles to the world. I want to make people happy. I want to make myself happy. I hope I contribute some happiness to the world. That's why I'm such a goof sometimes, I like making people laugh, I like giving people something to enjoy. Maybe that's why I love to be on stage so much.

K

Issues

It's good having those few people who you can tell anything. You, abyss of the internet, are one of those people. When I used to literally write in a journal I loved the ability to say anything I wanted without consequence and here I think I can do the same. We'll see how this goes...

Over the past few days I've realized I have issues. I have this inability to harvest emotions like normal people do. I also have this inability to get over things. Things being when I have feelings for a person and never really have the chance to get over them because I spend every single day with them. Things also being that when reunited with said person feelings come back when I've tried pretty hard to get over said feelings. Those things annoy me. That's why I have issues.

I don't know what it is. Maybe it's because I had these feelings during the biggest change in my life. Maybe it's because I haven't found someone new. Maybe it's because I can't help it. Maybe it's because I'm really meant to be with this person. I'll try not to think about that last maybe, because if that were the case then things would be a lot easier, right? Yeah, that last maybe should be discarded. The sheer fact that I've noted it is cause for concern. Gosh I have issues.

June 23rd

I know it's no longer June 23rd but whatever...

I just wanted to thank June 23rd for bringing us Jason Mraz!
And for allowing me to listen to all 9 hours of his music which I have on my itunes, in one day.

In the words of Mr.A-Z
"Life is too short to be small"

K

Nice Day

The sun was shining most of today and although I didn't set aside time to enjoy the nice weather, I do thank it for bringing along a nice day. It was a relief not having to dodge raindrops on my way in and out of my car, as I've grown accustomed to. Thanks climate change for bringing Jersey all this rain in June!

I woke up later than I wanted to this morning... well, this afternoon... but I still accomplished most of what I needed to get done. Father's Day gift (check), clean my room (check), do laundry (check), get my little sister's birthday present (che... well not really..). Today consisted on sleeping late, going to the mall, and enjoying a delicious dinner. All three of which are things I love to do (and might I say, do very well)!

Top three reasons today was awesome:
*drum roll*

1. So although I meant to buy this coloring book for my 5 year old sister's birthday which is this weekend, it turns out it has much more potential. Basically, I'm keeping it all for myself. Some people say "it's like stealing candy from a baby." But to me "it's like stealing creative supplies from a child." This awesome coloring book joins the list of countless crayons, markers, and gel pens I've borrowed from my younger siblings. However, I did buy this myself and never actually gave it to her... so I feel it's fine.



2. Found this dress at Rue 21 for $20! It was love at first sight and I just had to had to have it! I know it cost a lot more than it's probably worth... but I don't care. There are just certain things one needs in life... and I needed this dress!!!








3. When I got home from the mall my parents had already eaten dinner. But my stepdad had thought of me and, knowing I wouldn't be home, picked up my favorite treat from a local pizzaria. It's called a rice ball. But it's not just a normal rice ball. It's filled with meat and veggies and sauce and deliciousness!!!!! Needless to say, I enjoyed it very much as my dinner!

Peace, Love, Potter

Kristina

Top 10 Things I'm Thankful For

1. Living in a Democratic Country
2. Clean Water
3. The Internet
4. The ability to overcome oppression
5. Time
6. The power of ideas
7. Written Word
8. Artistic Expression
9. Freedom of Religion
10. Family... in all of it's forms

Love Love Love

Had a VERY long day today.
This late at night I'm not finding much happy. After waking up at 6am I helped run a summer orientation day at my University and didn't get home until the afternoon. More on that in a future post. Basically, I'm beat! Not that today wasn't rewarding, I do love being an Orientation Leader and helping new students get to know my school, but today was just... very long (as previously stated, i know, I'm short on originality tonight).

After I got home and ate dinner (and took a major power nap) I stopped over Heather's house for a few hours to watch a movie which was good times. We watched 50 First Dates which made me simultaneously disgruntled and happy. Happy because it's a funny movie that is really heart warming, classic romantic comedy, but disgruntled because, let's face it, I'm running on empty when it comes to a love life. I know that I can survive without a romantic interest, and I know I'm a strong independent woman and yadda yadda yadda... but sometimes I just think it would make me feel more complete to have a significant other. Movies like that always make me think about how alone I do feel sometimes. But then, when I think about it more, I know that at some point in my life I will get what I want. Right now I have no prospects, but things are always changing... for the better.

I'm trying to stay optimistic here!